All The Roads We Have To Walk Are Winding

9.14pm

Course finally ended today. The past 3 weeks have been a somewhat bittersweet experience. Torturous feeling of having to wake up every single day and having to ride on the bus almost 24-7 is over. But as much as I've been complaining and saying how much Im looking forward to working days in shift, have to admit that Im silently dreading going back to normal routine. Surely meeting and dealing with those bollocks of MOP has got to be worse than having to wake up every morning and go to work and undergo a course where you're not under any significant stress; well apart from undergoing the gas chamber and CS spray confidence training that is..they were real monsters. Yesterday, the latter basically screwed the life out of me. Im still feeling the effects on my skin. Skin is pretty dry. I hope it's not gonna get any worse than that. No sunburns please. Definitely one of [apart from that 'only for guys' skin trimming process!] and if not the most painful physical experience I've ever had.

Will be back to working shift tomorrow night. Was supposed to have enjoyed the weekend, but got recalled. S*** had returned sonner than expected! And unfortunately, Im gonna miss the Squad Team's sentosa outing. Sorry lads, my hands are tied. Tomorrow is Rahim's birthday. [Gosh I think!] If I get this wrong Im gonna get slaughtered... Happy advance birthday dude

Stomach just cued me. Im gonna go grab dinner now..

9.57pm

I Don't Believe That Anybody Feels The Way I Do About You Now

11.37pm
Radio = Oasis - Wonderwall

Two weeks have come and gone. Into the third and final week now. Don't know if I should be feeling glad or diillusioned when all this ends. I've never been a fan of office hours. They eat up most of your time. And waking up to every single morning for work is just not my cup of tea. The only two pluses : You work a shorter period of hours and the other being that you're entitled to look forward to the weekends. Im all for shift. But then again, thinking of dealing with those unreasonable scumbags and their petty ridiculous matters all over again is such a major turnoff. I really don't know how to approach this. While being away, so much is happening at work. Few colleagues have tendered their resignations. Shocking. But more importantly, how much is it gonna affect the rest unfortunately, inclusive of me..I'd say big big mess. Grants for work leave is very much gonna be tight lid. At most one per shift? And that is not good..

Alrite, I have finally gotten the Ipod! It was a lil hard parting with the hard earned cash initially but once I had it, all doubts were forgotten. And now Im loving every moment of it. Definitely has got to be one of the best purchases I've made. Real class.

Talked to a friend yesterday. Topic - relationships..work along that line. And as we got on talking, I realised I was being ridiculed by remarks. I was suddenly in the firing line and I got judged! Though I wasn't sure of how genuine his remarks were, I was generally pissed. I didn't really show it but somehow rather he must have known anyway. Hate it when people judge especially when it's you on the receiving end. It's even more frustrating when you realise later that perhaps they're right and close to the truth. Reality bites.. My friend? We're still kewl.

Countdown to total euphoria now stands at 29 days away.

Psyching myself up for tomorrow's training. Into the gas chambers.. Poor skin's gonna burn. This is going to be nasty..

12.36am

It's All In My Head

12.01am

Started the day meeting Jessy. Nouveau regard. Elle a paru jolie avec les cheveux longs. Only that familiar old face. Alas, so much to do, so little time.. But anyway it was nice seeing her and have those trademark aunty conversations again after some time..

Im undecided. Should I just get the Ipod without any company..or do I actually need one? Tried to get escorts earlier yesterday, but everyone was busy! That sucked. Money's ready, it's only a matter of when now. Guess it'll just have to wait.. Only worry now is that if I shift the priority of getting it onto a different thing. Guitar/Accessories etc perhaps??

I guess Singapore is a really really small country. Or perhaps the east of it. Spoke to Nazie and apparently she knows Fattah too!!?? Gosh. And we didn't discover it through that internet machine called Friendster.. Hmmmm. And I discovered she exercises...at night! Interesting. That's a first in the friends' list.

Yesterday was the 4th day of training. Was relatively more interesting compared to the previous days. It's been tired sleepy-eyes boring theory classes! But now we had drills and hands on applications. I realised Im more of a practical person.. The only downside was that we trained under the slightly heavy drizzling rain during the ending stages. And I didn't have my riot helmet on me.. Now, throat's not feeling alright. A little dry, a little hoarse. Feel a flu could be on the cards.

And now I think Im falling sick..

.....It's been a while since I saw Erin. Wonder how much fat she's put on now... See the bulge on stomach that she claims she has lately. Some sight it will be. Hehe

Alrite Im gonna have plenty of water now. Im expecting a sore throat later.

Im falling asleep. Turning in. Gotta wake for work later. Bollocks. Arrivederci..

1.07am

Open Up My Eager Eyes [I'm Mr Brightside]

The Killers - I'd Kill For Their Fashion

1.48pm
The Killers - Mr Brightside

Today is Hari Raya Haji and dad's birthday. We'd get to have both celebrations. Kewl. Of late, I get the feeling that we're bonding closer than ever.. Is it? Or is it just me??

January will be a busy month.

Work. Currently on a 3 weeks office hours course. Really dreading it. Yesterday was the first. One down, 13 to go. But there is one thing to look forward to.. Payday! In 2 day's time. And Im inching ever closer to that elusive Ipod Nano. Come to papa! Oh I'll have you!..... Soon.

The past few days, it's been raining. It's nice to have cooler temperature around once a while. And I welcome the change of weather. And yes, it's that time for sweaters and pullovers..

Everything around is going on just the way they should. No surprises. Nothing to be excited about. And it's killing me. Boredom's a silent killer. And Im feeling pretty stale. Down.

Arrgh! God help me..

2.54pm

Why Don't We Ever Believe Ourselves

2.32pm

Was looking thru' Ain's blog, and found this. Decided to give it a try. The things I discovered later were rather interesting.

1) The result. Some were near truth. How the heck they figured that out!?
2) Handwriting. I have bad handwriting. Gosh. A pale shadow of the old me with tiny neat penning. Well blame the mouse!

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance and symmetry.

You are a shy, idealistic person who does not find it easy to have relationships, especially intimate ones.

You are affectionate, passionate, expressive and future-oriented.

You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.

You enjoy your life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others.

Couple of hours to go before work. Dreading it already..

3.24pm

Worn Me Down To My Knees

8.16pm
Rachel Yamagata - Worn me Down

What do you know, it's 2006! The past year's really came and gone that quick?? Time travels with the blink of an eye.

I didn't get much of a wink yesterday. Right after working the graveyard shift the night before, went to the stall to help mum out right till 2pm. And got me a haircut after that at Tampines. Went to sis's place then and got about 45mins worth of chicken sleep. Woken up at 5.3opm. Took the cab while it was raining. Perfect heavenly weather to be cuddling that bolster on bed. And it just had to happen to compound the misery. Traffic jam. Flow was terrible. Got to PIE and was stuck. When I finally past it, the reason for the jam? - Accident. On the opposite road direction! I can only blame those kay-poh drivers on my side of the road.. Got to work, and I heard CO wasn't happy that I was late. That caused me 12 extra hours docked off my hours claim record. Great

Work later that night was really really tiring. New Yr's Eve Duty at Orchard Rd..what's new? I should have been celebrating and not working.. It pisses me off seeing those happy happy people enjoying themselves. Was pissing on myself when I saw someone none other than a friend celebrating himself.. Standing on top of the open-top double deck bus, blowing on that irritatingly noisy party horn, cheering on the crowd below. That must have been fun. F***!! A friend of sya's said: 'who works on new year's eve!' Bah! Painful statement to swallow.. Anyway I could barely walk.

Palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy..

That hell of a duty ended at 5am. I got home at 5.45am. Talk about a hard day's night.. And I've been working like a dog.. [??!!] Truth be said. But on another meaning... Damn The Beatles!

Welcoming the new year, I wish for more... I wish for luck. I wish for fortunes. I wish for health. I wish for happy happy moments. And yes, world peace.. I wish. I wish. I wish.

Happy New Year.

9.22pm