I'm Just Looking

People have an annoyingly infectious way of assuming what someone is like merely based on what their shallow eyes see. The ears don't fare any better. Monkey hear monkey agree. We're living around 'sad' people.

I unfortunately have had the honour of often been misunderstood, I assume. Not saying much or keeping to myself doesn't mean I'm anti-social or quiet. Well if you're not saying anything then technically yes, you are quiet. But the thing is I'm not someone who's devoured of ideas and opinions. These things do carry credible weight if you only know how to squeeze the mix out of me brain. I'm different from most or the relative people I should say. I will never come up to someone and spill all my life guilt-ridden stories in the space of minutes to that poor chap who might not even be interested to know in the first place. But they always put up inquisitive looks. Hypocrites! Anyway I'm just not that kinda bla bla person. I feel that to know someone, you gotta afford time. If you haven't got it, buy it and give spaces in between.

So it is, some see me as this awkwardly quiet boring person. And the fake truth wheels on. I guess people just find it easier to leave assumptions of their first impressions of someone as their last. They just don't bother to find the time for finding the good in someone. But when it comes to picking out the negatives, they'll tell you to take a seat and listen.

Maybe I'm bothered by this, and so have become selfish in my thoughts. And I share only with a handful of people I'm extremely comfortable with...and dare I say none comes within the very four walls I live in. Communication and blending is non existent sometimes. Am I alien/ Was it the way I was brought up/ Or is it just the way I choose to live/ I'm a sad alien.

I wish people will stop looking at someone from the outside. Cos if they only spared some time and trust for the one, he'd give them the same and show them the person he really is and then they'd see a decent enough interesting person. Unfortunately I just take a little more time to adjust and socialise. And that has been my downfall. I should have known we're in a race and we're running for time cos we're running out of it. Told you time is the enemy. Hope there'll be positive changes in future.

I'm just looking, I'm not buying. I'm just looking, it keeps me smiling.



April 28th Fort Canning. Stereophonics was rocking brilliant. Perfect rock gods. I felt like a rocker. It may have been the best concert I've been to.







Today's a special day. I'm getting my noose tightened around my neck. Haha. Ok it is special. I'm getting engaged!!! Sya cannot believe it, nor can I! I should be having my beauty sleep right now - flying among the clouds with fat chubby little cupids...but here I am blogging. Maybe the occasion is slowly creeping up on me. And I'm trying to avoid it...was trying to. It has got to me! It has got to me!! I'm getting nervous by the hour. Metal winged butterflies in my stomach, it's excruciating. I'm getting murdered///

Still I'm excited. Somehow the idea of introducing your gf to others as a fiancee sounds strangely good and responsible. Like I'm all grown up somewhat. The past close 2 years, and they have all come to this. Train is choot choo-ing. My new journey is beginning. Wish me luck.


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