Here Comes The Hols!!!

2 more days and I'm off to KL! Yipee!!!


xoxo

Come Over Just Be Patient And Don't Worry...

A wise friend told me everything that becomes, happens for a reason and it's destined to be. He also said however nothing that's been pre-determined is set in stone, god willing events may alter if we seek for changes.

It's easy for us to wait upon positive results and then start believing in something. 'How much faith u have depends on the outcome'. Perhaps that's where some of us, the writer inc have gone awfully wrong. Seeking answers, we have asked too many wrong questions to start with. And when we don't get anything, when we fall and lose our way, we feel it's just not worth the time. We feel it's too difficult and we give up easily. We stop marching and abandon paths that unknown to us would have carried us through eventually.

It's easy to distract myself from life. I just live. Do the things I love. Hang out with feeza, guys and stuffs, couch potato-ing etc. But then when I haven't got anything to do, I start to think about things.

Inside my head, I start to worry. And perhaps a little too excessively (thus the growth of white hair). I worry about how life will be in the future. How my finances will be. What kinda husband I'll be when I marry. What kinda father I'll become when I have kids. What kinda son I'll be to my parents then. All these things that haven't become reality worries me.

In this current situation, having a companion helps a great deal. You get to talk alot about it and argue just as much...sometimes you wonder why you even cared to share the worries. But at the end of the day it feels a whole lot better telling another than having to carry all the load upon your shoulders.

I'll learn to relax and ease a little. Not slack further, but move forward, focus and get some perspectives. I know I can't do it all in one push and go, I've always been slow to get things done. Need time and most importantly continued motivation (constant kicks up the arse will do for me). Do my fair bit of effort and wait. He will answer when deemed time cos how much of the outcome depends on your faith. I have certainly learned to believe that.

TRY.


xoxo