Maybe You're Gonna Be The One That Saves Me

11.40pm
Radio = Ryan Adams - Wonderwall

I've never really anticipated the coming of Valentine's. So when a friend asked if I had a date for the particular occasion, I didn't really know how to answer. He seemed really excited about it, so I didn't wanna dampen the spirits. Came up with something like 'oh I don't have a date yet..' which in truth was the case..sigh. But then again as I've said, I've never been one to celebrate the day. Let's just say the timings of past so called relationships have never been good. Paths have never crossed. Anyway, he kept on questioning how and why I didn't have one and repeatedly reminded that the day's coming soon and I should start ''firing my arrows" [to put what he said] away sooner. I was beginning to wonder if he was more excited for me to get a date than I was actually finding one. But as it's always been on the past, I'll pass..

I am however looking forward to the Oasis concert. I think Im gonna go cookoos that day.. 9 days away and I can't believe it. Don't believe the truth? And yes then there's work's dinner and dance coming up in 3 days time. Have come up with a few ideas for the turnout and more or less I think I've gotten the ideal combination. Im just worried about me. Fickle.

Payday for the month threw a real nice surprise. Got a kewl $200/- extra in my coffers. Realised that it came from the converted leaves balance that weren't consumed last year. Excellent stuff.

Ms Sandy told me she's becoming a real fan of Coldplay's. Let's say that Im the instrumental figure behind it.. [Chucks] Great, another victim of mine! Talk of 'Talk'. I think she fell in love with the song. Contrasting moods. Where have all the days gone? Where making fun of Coldplay lyrics were a pleasure... And these days who's listening to the band itself?? No prizes for guessing...why it's Ms Sandy! [applause-applause] Welcome to the camp. But is this for real though?? It'd better be.. cos otherwise those CDs of the band will never reach her hands.
I saw pictures that were recently posted by her.. loved it. Nice. Hoping to be meeting her soon. It's been sometime..

Should I..? Should I not..?

12.42pm

I'm Sure You've Heard It All Before

4.11pm
Radio = Oasis - Wonderwall

First entry of the month. It's been awhile.. Been real busy at work. Word W.O.R.K spells downer these days.

Is it just us, humans and our nature? How we slander each other time and again. We bring one up today, and bombard them with critics the next. All the while picking at their unsuspecting backs. Why do we do the things that we do? It's like second to nature. It's there..happens everywhere. And we just can't afford not to. One way or another, no matter how big or little the contribution is, we just ramble on about others. No matter how we deny having 'Hypocrite' as one of our character traits, I think we all are it. It's just the measure of being it. Me and you, our best friends, galfriends, boyfriends, mums, dads, sisters and brothers.. we ALL are guilty. Why? Feel good factor. Do we actually feel better about ourselves after..? Perhaps. Indirectly by doing so we secretly hope to elevate our level of status while at the same time bring the other's down within the community of so called 'friends'. Wanting others to see us as the one. Mr/Miss Popular. But ask ourselves, just what do we actually get from it? These feelings of momentary pleasure never really last. The next would be of guilt. And then suddenly you realised that what you've given, you've got. Now you're the talk of town. And then this leads to anger. Anger leads to suffering.. [Ok beginning to sound like Master Yoda now..] People just talk.. and there is nothing anyone can do to stop that. Bitching, it's a legal non-lethal drug. It's something we need in our lives without ever dying from it. But I guess, Im gonna try to cut down my intake..

So now.. how much do we trust then???

5.07pm