There’s Still A Little Bit Of Your Song In My Ear

10.30am

When you long for someone you barely know. When you try to keep your mind off that someone by distracting yourself, and the thought of that person just keeps jumping back to mind / Each time. When all you think of is nothing but the thought of their eternity presence around you.

And then suddenly you realised you're not you. Slowly your guard fades, even faster when you sort of lose control and begin to let it down, like helplessly at their will. You begin to doubt reality. If something like that would/could actually happen when it was in fact happening. The circumstances should it all in truth just turn out to be a slideshow in the end. But fears aside, hope makes you feel a lot easier. Like everything around seems less intimidating and you see the lighter sides you don't think you've seen before.

Dream.. Dream.. Dream.. Dream..

If this is infatuation, then I don't ever want to get over it..

[Hypnotized and in awe]

12.04pm

You Step A Little Closer Each Day

12.43pm
Radio = Damien Rice - Cannonball

I've tried my very bestest to get Nadia's pics. But apparently sis isn't in a charitable mood. Perhaps busy working on that figure 8.. There weren't much but of those mobile- sent, these 2 stood out. It's pretty much obvious why..

Angelic

Put A Smile Upon My Face

Life is trully one hell of a rollercoaster ride. One minute you're going through the lowest of lows, and the next you feel like superman; on top of everything, anything. The lowest of lows being not knowing what to do just to spend the hours to scrape through the day. Family all busy with the daily routines. Friends tied with their own missions. No lover for solace which spells zero glory. Everything around seems like a blur making you lose concentration and interest in the things that you love. And when you think you'd sink further, life throws you a line..perhaps to stir and mix it up a bit. Cos everything's gone a little too predicted in it's design. Lifelines come in all forms. Let it be winning a lottery, getting a pay raise, discovering an interest or skill that you never knew you were good at or simply getting to know a complete stranger and realise how wonderful that person is.

Everything that you hoped for, suddenly you find in him/her. Let's say racking up the checks in your personal scoreboard. And though there's every chance that this will disappoint, the fact that it's still unclear if he's/she's THE one, you choose to ignore it and start to risk. Deep deep down secretly praying that this will be it.. If so, great. But what if this is just transit? Just one of those many meetings with strangers who'll come and go.

Life is just...

I remember well how Damien Rice explained it. It wasn't how I had imagined it was supposed to be but it was beautiful..

"Being in a room. Barely knowing the person sitting next to you but you're very much attracted to her. There's a certain distance in between but then in your head you're all over her. And then she leaves the room, you feel terrible that she's gone. But the great thing now is you can then do all the things that you wanted to with her.... In your head that is."

Cheers.

1.31pm

Beauty In The Breakdown

3.54pm

For all the seemingly endless discussions of heart and headaches, something beautiful came into my life yesterday. And for a moment, it made me forget everything..

Sister gave birth to her second child, a daughter yesterday morning. And Im an excited uncle for a second time! The moment I saw my first ever niece, she brought a smile to my face. She was pretty and angelic. Everything about her was so peaceful.

Welcome to the family, Nadia.

Pictures due soon.

4.14pm

Such Boundless Pleasure, We've No Time For Later Now

7.06pm

I know I've been stressing on the lows of life since.. I don't know when, since joining the working class people? And it seems that the more I put it into writing, the more determined I get to setting it right. Of cos it's so easy to forget that we tend to say more and do less.. for me at least. Bah! I need that thing called motivation, badly. I realised Im beginning to turn into something what Imran loves to call it - driftwood. It's scary knowing that time keeps on turning. And as we age along, there's nothing in the world we can do about it. Perhaps the older we get the more desperate we become. So I'd say, carpe diem.. Always. Do it you idiot!! [self referential]

Yesterday was sister's birthday and I missed the family dinner to celebrate the occasion last night. I can't believe I didn't bring my lazy ass off bed. In deep sleep and if I may recall, was going through multiple dreams. Now that rarely happens. Not that I can remember any now. Shit I feel bad.. even worse when I think of the fact that I haven't got her anything! Buying gifts - I've never been good at it. Perhaps that is one thing I should work on next year...just to be fair to those birthdays that have passed this year! Happy Birthday sis..

Resolution number 1: Start making resolutions
Resolution number 2: Achieve the resolutions
Resolution number 3: Start getting gifts for birthdays

We're only close to halfway through the year, so this is definitely too early to say. But I think there's so much to look forward to next year... Hopefully things that happen are good ones. All of it..

Ticket sales for Coldplay are out on 19th May!! Lighters are flickering in the pockets. But then again..

Cheers.

8.17pm

Too Busy, You're Writing Your Tragedy

8pm
Radio = Frou Frou - Let Go

I've been meaning to write since a couple of days ago but work has really gained a huge load the past week. And it's only now where I've found some time.

May 5th was grandpa's passing anniversary. 7 years seem like a long way but for that particular day. I could never forget that date. Anyway apart from that, I had work at 3pm that day. And that was the start...of head spins and double visions. Duty ended at 11pm. But no relief yet. Had another coming later at 4am. Right, off to bed..at work. I don't think I ever slept then. It felt as if the alarm rang as when the time I was setting it. 3am - red puffy eyes. The second duty finished at 1pm. That done, I headed home and was looking forward to a nice long sleep. 6.38pm - I received a call from the guys. Recall!! I just couldn't believe my ears. What the fuck!!! I should have had that thought if I hadn't say it out loud. The third duty..started at 8pm right till the wee hours of the next, that was earlier today at 3am. And all these for the General Elections. All the drama, all the saga...for my suffering. In all, work cost me 24 hours++. Excellent.

I had watched The Spanish Apartment and Garden State recently. I kinda got into them. That bittersweet feeling. I realised movies that gets my attention are those that play a real story. Telling issues that we face daily. Nothing of those fictional fantasy stories really matter. They don't last in mind. Anyway, I was pleasantly surprised when I heard Radiohead's No Surprises in Spanish Apartment and Coldplay's Don't Panic featuring in Garden State. The latter's movie soundtrack is excellent. I made some nice song discoveries. Frou Frou's Let Go is a gem. On first hearing, I'd have put my money on KT Tunstall being the singer cos they sound so similar.

Interestingly after watching Garden State, I don't ever remember watching another movie with an unspelt ending where I'm genuinely satisfied. That's a first for a movie. At the end, the guy asks the girl ''What do we do?" and he just smiles at her and then they stare at each other...

On a personal matter, things haven't been any different. I haven't got anything new. And Im searching..still. Whatever or whoever and wherever it is. Maybe some things are better left unsaid and unwritten. The best person to understand and explain are perhaps ourselves.. ?? ..

Oh yes lastly about the thing I was talking about recently and hadn't mentioned, last heard Peterpan will be coming this June to perform a gig at Hard Rock. [..thanks Farina.] And get this, Coldplay are scheduled to play here again on July 10th! Tickets details are not out yet. I'll be staying tune..

[P/S] By the way, Ms Sandy Erin you'll be fine. A friend in need's a friend indeed.

10.03pm