Everyone Gotta Be Somewhere

12 November 05 - 3.59pm
Radio = Stereophonics - Traffic

..cont'd.

Right. I should finish this. Been trying to the last few days. Somehow I just couldn't find the motivation to satisfy the intention. Lack of free time was a factor too. Thoughts written here have been scattered into sections. Somehow rather I hope they'd fit in nicely..

That day. 7 Nov 05. It didn't start off well. Waiting for the bus was mentally torturing. 170. I think I've read an article somewhere in the papers about a complaint on it. The chap mentioned that he had to wait for so long till it arrived. Well now I can add me and Erin as victims of it now. I swore we waited for like 30mins. I think. Should be close nonetheless. Bum was getting swollen. And then while we were in the bus, didn't share much of a conversation. I couldn't really think of anything interesting to talk about. That was strange. And yes, she was sleepy anyway. I could see that. Great. I was bored and slowly getting restless. And then I started feeling sleepy.. Just great!! And so we basically laboured on through the whole journey. I was sure if it had taken any longer, I would have gone to lala land..Thankfully we reached destination soon enough. There, we met a man. He was a little "funny" - weird. He kept on talking to us like he'd known us for years. The atmosphere was such a reverse! Anyways.. he asked if we were a married couple..... excuse me..what?? I didn't know what to say. Clueless to how I should be feeling towards the remarks. A smile was all the brain could think of. So then I smiled...before instinctively both of us shot a "no we're not!" reply to him. From then on, I don't know if it was just me..he seemed to start paying more attention to her. Conversation wise. Bah! While he was busy chatting her up, I was busy writing on that white piece of entry paper. Good preparations a? I remembered hearing one of the many "interesting" questions he asked . One went something like if she was Eurasian [?? right!] cos he thought she looked like one....yawn! Wait did he just tried a pick-up line?? It had better not be cos if it was..then that would have been so LAME!! I knew she was starting to feel uncomfortable. Kept bugging me to hurry up. I was trying! I wanted to lose him just as much. And then out of nowhere, he told us that if we ever were short of money, we could turn to him for financial assistance. He'd be more than glad to help. And then he gave us his business card. Huh?? What the f***? What is he? Mr psychotic loanshark samaritan wannabe??!! He was eager. And maybe a little desperate. Anyway I almost forgot to mention how in the first place we had even got associated with him. As much as he appeared to be crazy, I didn't think he was. Rule of Engagement. We had made the first move and chosen him. Well, actually she did. Sigh, tsk tsk tsk.. But we needed a favour. Didn't have a pen. Whoa we really came "prepared"..! I tried asking but the customs officer couldn't bear to part with his. Awwww, okay! Then...we found our man!! And the rest is history.. "Lucky" choice. Ok, off we went then. Changed some money and headed to City Square. It's a little worrying when you get stared at "hungrily" by the locals there. Think walking chicken drumsticks like those in the cartoons e.g Tom & Jerry.. Haha. We were hungry. Two fickle souls resulted in some time deciding where to eat. But we knew our orders from the start. Pasta for her. I was going for Fish & Chips. Got into a cafe like restaurant. It was like as if we were in Swensen's cos everything in there replicated the franchise. Only that we were not. We were in Season's. Haha.. The food serving could have been more but that just explained why the prices were cheap. Still, nice edible food. Right. No complaints then. After that, we went out for a breather. For a smoke. Im gonna make her quit. Indefinitely. We bought 4 packs of cigs. How to stash it through customs? .....I'll just say walking has never been so uncomfortable. At least for someone. Go figure. Haha. Hmm desperate time calls for desperate measures. I remember thinking as we were walking towards security, ..what if?? Think Brokedown Palace. Haha way dramatic..

Reached home in one peace. We figure we'd go to town to chill through the night. I have a story to tell now. It's called The Loo. See I was in the loo. Answered 2 calls. Phonecall from a friend and nature's call. Didn't know how long I was in there..cos when I went to the lobby of the loo [if you can call it that], Im saw a figure outside. A girl. And she was peeping into the Men's loo! Just then that tune, the sound you always hear in thriller movies when the killer stalks his victim, rang. In my head of cos. Shocked. Psychosomatic Addict Insane. It was Erin! What was she doing?? She said I was in the loo for so long that she had to check. "Check". Haha. Really? I didn't realise that. Or, was she just being a psycho peeper? Hahaha. But I believed her. Gave her the benefit of a doubt. But for God's sake, please please please don't ever do that again! Later we went to Starbucks where it would be our last stop. Nice setting. At one point, Damien Rice's Cannonball aired. Haaaarrr....really nice. Conversations. Conversations. And more conversations. Took some shots too. Could have had more. But it's difficult when you have someone deleting away pictures from the camera that were deemed ugly. Sigh..term candid camera counts for nothing then.. And yes I didn't get her anything. No gift. You IDIOT!! I felt bad. Really. But on the way back later, I did promise I'll get her one. And so the night ended. Celebration wasn't the way I would have wanted it to be. Could have been more exciting. Saying this, I think it wasn't that bad either. Something simple and sweet of a day to remember..

Went out with Indra the other day. 10 Nov 05. To the old home we went - Tampines. It's been like ages since my last visit. Things have changed. New shops everywhere. I was impressed. Got me some clothes and a PC mic. The latter luckily didn't cost a bomb. Did some window shopping and there were some things that I wanted but I just couldn't buy. Well I could actually. But then financial balance would have been somewhat upset. Not when it's still 30 days away from the next pay. Shitos! December wishlist just keeps growing.. Still, I got something that I didn't expect I would have gotten then. But I was glad I did. Got "it" out of the way. No more need to squeeze the brain for ideas. That was a surprise. Was good. And I love good surprises! Icing on the cake. Merci Indra..you're a genius! I just hope the juice was worth the squeeze. And no worries, I'll remember. $25 bucks into your coffers next pay. Merci Beaucoup..

That same day. Sandy went to the hospital for the results. I don't know what's the outcome. Only know she's given an option for an OP. I hope everything's alright. Nothing life threatening or anything like that. Really really hope so cos I kinda sensed that it could be more than that and she's not telling..

The thing about relationships - it's like.... a comet. It could strike or miss you. And when it does hit, it breaks to you gently or strikes as hard as a curve ball. Either ways you would never know what hit you. You've fallen deeply in OR out of it. And the biggest worry is of cos the latter. It's depressing. It's sad. It's pathetic. I don't wanna feel that way. No one does. Everyone wants a homerun. We all wanna fall into cupid's spell and see it through. Who doesn't? I want that. But I don't know why.. with me, the cons always outway the pros. Or so I see it to be... [?] Perhaps that is why the comets have missed me all this while. I could be partly responsible for that. I might have avoided them in the first place. Now. I can't help thinking. Possibilities. A genuine opportunity awaits. Everyone seems to share the same opinion. A friend said I should give it a go. Im thinking...perhaps. I should. For the consequences, I shouldn't worry about it now. I've been worrying long enough anyway. They will come as you go. And things change. Just hope and pray everything will be alright. Im glad I had that conversation. Thank you. A friend in need is a friend indeed. A friend with weed is better..

5.52pm

Late!! Right Im off to work.. Arrivederci

12 Nov 05 - 5.55pm